1. All the money
   It has taken me four years to write this post. When I was 25, I was encouraged to write a book on my life as a professional ____. one day the book I put out got so popular, I made an insane amount of money and I do whatever I want in life. That got me thinking what else I wanted in life, I have all the money in the world. Around the same time I began to sit myself down to write the book, I had started a prerequisite course to get into a college. Amongst the confidence that came with the book I was writing, I figured I’d listen to my calling of becoming a Chiropractor to put myself in the position of helping people. That is what I would do with my time since I have all the money in the world.

I trust God put me here for a reason. I want to help people, I have an abundance of lessons I’d be happy to share so maybe someone out there would not need to learn them as hard as I have. As I am only one person with one brain, two hands and only 2 or 3 personalities.. I can no longer separate some of my experiences from others since they have not been lived separately but, melt together in an indistinguishable singular river decorated with all of its rocks, branches, fish, foliage, sparkling droplets of H2O as blended as each moment of my lifetime. At times this river flows at ease and other times, its a network of vicious rapids twisting and turning and ever changing but, it is still just one river. So here I go, I will- for lack of better words- punch fear in the face. And share what is to be shared. In a grand effort to see the beauty there is to be seen.

2.

Letting the flow state, “I am a vehicle for God’s work”, stream of consciousness take place.

This is my version of the art of allowing.

You wake up one morning, from a dream that you are so curious how it will progress. Despite every need to get up and do work in the waking life, you choose to put yourself back in the dream to see what happens. You return to dreamland and you find yourself at a fork in the road. Now, you are in control of your dream. Your mind shows you the future of choosing the path to your right, if you choose this path life will bring you wealth and no friends. If you turn left, you have friends but no money. It is not a dream you ever remember being in before. In the back of your head you are happy you’ve returned to experience something so cool. The dream fades and you find yourself running down a beaten path. It is not clear if this dream is related to the last one or if it’s a new one. You run into a village of people who do not speak the same language as you. In fact, you can not speak at all. You are trying, you’re trying to scream, even. The people around are ignoring you and you’re unable to get anyone’s attention. The dream fades and you find yourself waking up and you have an intense anxiety you have overslept and need to rush to your commitment. You are mad at yourself for going back to sleep. You wake up actually and see that you are not late, but do need to get a move on. On your way to your commitment, you completely forget about your dreams and find yourself at 8pm that night with a weird feeling. You vaguely remember what happened when you woke up and can’t shake the feeling. It doesn’t come back to you and you move on shortly to the rest of your evening, week, month, and year. One year goes by, you find yourself in at the fork in the road again, this time it’s in real life. You’ve been offered a job that will pay well but, you won’t have time to have friends. If you don’t take the job, you’ll remain with your friends and you will remain broke. You do not make the connection that this was like that one dream you had that one time and you choose to take the job, get the money and you lose contact will all of your friends. The work has you on call from 8am- 9pm and you find yourself problem solving for the company on your days off, before you clock in and you usually are texting with a coworker about smoothing out some details around 11:30pm while you are in bed right before you go to sleep. The only things you dream of now are work issues, coworkers and the occasional nightmare of you losing your job and money not knowing what you would do with out it.

I’m aware it’s a belief system that everything happens for a reason

Problem: Hanging on for dear life to the raft while I measure up what I think should be happening against what is actually happening.

Solution: Trust the process and let go.

How can I make this about you? You are the reader, after all. The reason I’m doing this is to help you. I already have learned these lessons.

3.

You deserve well being.

You are an infinite soul with infinite potential. One of the brain’s job is to inhibit receiving messages because many things in your surroundings and in your mind are trying to pull our attention at all times. Focus isn’t about paying attention to one thing, it’s about not paying attention to everything else. When you realize this, you are able to tap into your greatest potential. By modulating what you choose to block out and what you allow to let in.

Problem: The problem is, blocking out the noise and choosing to allow your potential to shine through.

Personal story: My roommates are being loud as hell at the moment, talking.. at a high volume, blasting the TV, bass reverberating through from on the other side of the wall from where I am writing this post. I, however, am reaching my fullest potential at this moment. I am using the tools God is handing me at the moment to make a point. Which is a part of my potential. I am potentially good at making points because it is what I like to do. I also enjoy turning each situation into a catchy lesson. Lastly, I like to improvise to build a good story. Sometimes, I wear headphones to block out the noise but, in reality I signed a 3 year lease to move into my own townhouse in six weeks. After 12 years of living with roommates, I am exploring my greatest potential outside of having the input of noise from other people who live in my space and by me removing myself from theirs. Things are to be navigated in the short term and in the long term, constantly. I’ve realized I could reach a greater potential if I lived quietly in my own space, but that is something planned for the future and is not my reality at the moment. Does that mean I sit around until that happens? No! I have tried that in the past and it turns out, there will always be distractions and to live in future plans will take away from the potential I hold in the present moment. It’s slightly toxic anyway to live in the thought of “if I had this thing, everything would be great!” A habit I am letting go of, myself. I believe everything I need to reach my fullest potential I have within and in front of me right now. Deciphering what that is or how it will come about is tough, so I leave it to God. There are a few things I choose to stick to, one of them is writing these posts and sharing them so someone might learn something from what I have to say and their life could be better. That is why I do it and I am committed to sharing lessons with others. And learning form their lessons. So in the end, I feel I’m reaching my greatest potential because I’m doing what I want to be doing and feel happy with it. You can choose what gives you that feeling no matter what noise is in the background.

Solution: Do what makes you happy, when it makes you happy. Accommodate for the inconveniences by instead looking at your annoyances as potential for a greater perspective from what you feel comfortable with. If you want to block something out, my advice is to embrace it instead. Choose to make the uncomfortable your friend rather than foe and navigate your decision making for the future based on your preferences but, do not live in that illusory future that is not guaranteed to happen as you imagine it.